Stop and listen for a moment, take a breath, close your eyes, then let go. I had almost forgot what it was like to simply relax, listen and go to that place. A place where my opinion, current spiritual state, problems, worries, personal importance don't matter. These things and others are always pleading for my attention and eat at my day to the point where they are all I can focus on and identify who I am.
Then I find you, the one thing that does matter, the one thing deserving of my time, the only opinion to hold to. I can't help but laugh at how much everything that I had built up in importance, suddenly comes crashing down till all that remains is You.
Forgive me Lord for building idols of self importance and security in my doubt and brokeness, that I said you were not ENOUGH to be my portion, my provider, my savior, my redeemer. God break me of my pride, self reliance, and doubt. I am tired of trying to do this life without you, only to find myself hurt, lost and broken. I need you to be my portion, the one who loves my inadequacies, my magnificent obsession, my hearts deepest desires, the fullest ambition for my life.
Break me Father, till all that remains is you.
